I had the most amazing weekend ever...

blazedsubaru · Post by **blazedsubaru** » Tue May 29, 2007 7:46 pm

I have been hanging out with this girl for about four months and it's been made clear that we both have feelings for each other, but she's afraid of getting hurt again and she's got some stuff to sort through, stuff like that. I stuck around, gave her support when she needed it and space when she wanted it and generally tried to be a good guy to her. I tried to get over her, but it just wasn't going to happen.

Lately her and I had been getting closer again, talking more deeply, and hanging out everyday. So we decided that we were going to go camping for memorial day weekend and we would bring some friends. At first nobody but her and I could go, and I asked her if that was the case if she'd want to go and she told me she'd almost like it better that way, but we had to invite people and whoever could come would. So we had 2 other people (another guy and girl) come with us.

We didn't get to our camp site until 1am and we were in the middle of nowhere. Like 6 miles up this dirt road twisting through the mountains. We set up camp, smoked a few bowls, and drank some. We got pretty fucked up and ended up playing music and partying until 5am.

The next day we laid out in the sun together by the creek and just talked. That night we were going to bed and were sleeping side by side when she just grabs me and pulls me close, gives me a kiss and starts to fall asleep. I woke up still holding her. That hasn't happened for months.

So when we were heading back she kept telling me she didn't want the trip to be over and all that. When we got home we were talking on Myspace (yeah...I know) and she posted a poem as a bulletin, I read it, then she quickly deleted it and asked me if I read it before she deleted it. I of course saved it because...well...I don't know why.

Everytime you look at me
I see it in your eyes.
Everytime you sleep by me
I feel it in your breath.
Everytime i talk to you
I hear it in your voice.

Sometimes I think I know what I want
Oh, what I need baby.
I think I'm strong. Invincible.
But we know this is crazy
For i'm still young and naive.

To sleep alone on lonely nights
My phone dead, the house empty
I look outside to see cars passing.
People with places to go and things to see
But I'm just sitting here alone.

I used to think it didnt matter
Turned my face away from my heart
Looked in nobody's direction.
I thought I was being smart.
Was content with these lonely nights.
Well I'm not anymore, baby.

When you look at me with those eyes
Its true. I melt inside.
Don't I hide it good?
I guess it is my pride.
I'm scared, you see.
I'm scared of what this poem might bring
If you even read it.
...I can't be having a silly fling
I'm scared to open up. To depend on anyone.

My heart is already broken.
I'm scared to break it more.
To be let down, again.
But it's something I can't ignore.
I'm scared, but this is how I feel.
You know I open up in poetry
And this is something i couldnt conceal...

Oh, and when I came home I had a job offer which was sweet!

Jim777 · Post by **Jim777** » Tue May 29, 2007 8:17 pm

whats your myspace i wanna see her pic

blazedsubaru · Post by **blazedsubaru** » Tue May 29, 2007 8:18 pm

I'm pretty sure she's private but its www.myspace.com/fuckheeps that's me.
I'm private too tho.

Wow it's my birthday tomorrow...I'm 18 tomorrow, lol.

SQUEEZABLE · Post by **SQUEEZABLE** » Tue May 29, 2007 8:20 pm

whats ur myspace sure ill add ye:)

dylann · Post by **dylann** » Wed May 30, 2007 7:34 am

yeah i might too you seem like a pretty cool guy

sickkid90 · Post by **sickkid90** » Wed May 30, 2007 8:40 am

i did add him

Post by **WeedGuru_Flow** » Wed May 30, 2007 11:12 am

that's so nice dude!!!!!

Just keep on doing what you do, it seems to be the right way to act around this girl.

I hope you guys end up being happy forever!

blazedsubaru · Post by **blazedsubaru** » Wed May 30, 2007 7:00 pm

Well I told her yesterday as we were laying out by the river that I never wanted thing to be weird, I didn't want to abandon our friends, but I couldn't be without her any longer.

Then we met up with some friends at the lake and now my cell phone, car keys (like 300 bucks for new Subaru keys..) and iPod are sitting at the bottom of the lake....

But yeah. She has a blog on her myspace with my name as the title and it's private... It might be that poem though. It feels so amazing just being around her. Getting in my car and having it smell like her. Everything about her...

LOL, I can't go a day without her, she's like a drug. She's better than any drug. She tells everyone she won't smoke unless she's 100% comfortable and lately she hasn't turned down weed from me when we're alone or with friends.

Ikku · Post by **Ikku** » Wed May 30, 2007 7:54 pm

blazedsubaru wrote:Then we met up with some friends at the lake and now my cell phone, car keys (like 300 bucks for new Subaru keys..) and iPod are sitting at the bottom of the lake....

wtf

Anyway you sound pretty infatuated, best of luck. Don't let yourself get hurt.

blazedsubaru · Post by **blazedsubaru** » Wed May 30, 2007 9:08 pm

Yeah, it was some bullshit.

We went to this lake to smoke hooka because it's a chill spot. We get there, set up the hooka and realize we forgot the foil. So I drive back with my friend, get the foil out of this other girl's car, and when I come back this girl pushes in Mallory, then Mallory grabs my arm and I go in. All my shit got wet and I was pissed.

So I set it all on this bench to dry and then Miranda pushes Nick and Nick knocks over the bench in his fall, knocking all my shit into the lake. I made him scrape the bottom for 45 minutes for this.

asswipe · Post by **asswipe** » Wed May 30, 2007 9:21 pm

Very nice story and all, but her pulling you against her giving you a kiss and sleeping with each other, AND NO ACTION?! dude?

Ras Bongo · Post by **Ras Bongo** » Thu May 31, 2007 12:26 am

True love is amazing man... one love...

Jim777 · Post by **Jim777** » Thu May 31, 2007 2:05 am

YOURE GOING TO HIT THAT GIRL SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON

i know shes not that type of girl but still, having sex with a girl u really love is 10213012012010x better

blazedsubaru · Post by **blazedsubaru** » Thu May 31, 2007 2:15 am

This girl is a closed door freak.

I will guarantee that.

Post by **(weedguru)scarf** » Thu May 31, 2007 11:34 am

girls got talent too... that is a good piece

sounds like your happy man

just take your time and dont rush shit
you will appreciate it more
you still want to be discovering things about her 12 months on you know...

good luck man

oh and im going to go add a whole lot of you weed guru mofo's to myspace.... peace

www.weedguru.com

I had the most amazing weekend ever...

I had the most amazing weekend ever...

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