some old poem

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it looks like i only have one way out of this pain
the only thing i have to do is puncher this main vain
all my problems would flow away
this is what i need to happen today
while im sittin here in this chair
i wonder who what why when where
why should i live if i cant have what i want
all my friends jsut point and taunt
but your still here
but your not near
this situation is so fucked i dont know how i should act
but i know this for a fact
you are my first and i dont know about this dope
i jsut dont think i can do this i dont think i can cope
so i say goodbye till i c you again
cuz right now i have to go and amend
i have to talk to my god before i loose it all
all this weight i think im going to fall
the pressure is too much how much longer can i stay here
you keep movin away and now your not even near
my collerbone cracks with all this weight
alls i ever wanted was a date
but you said no and drugs said yes
so bye for now i guess
till i come back one day from hell
ill look like i never fell
you tore me apart and left me to die
now im all day i cry
cry over my failure of when i fell
now i just wish you fuckin burn in hell
you were all i wanted i gave you my heart
but i guess that just didnt fit the part
you kept leading me blindly over this cliff
with your lies and actions you were like a milf
now the descion is made you cant stop it
id dotn care if you cry and throw a fit
you can only take me so far
im going to crash this car
or slit the wrist on my arm
with all intentions to do harm
i sit by this river so wide
and only can thik of when you lied
now im swimming at the bottom with no motion at all
just becuase you thought i could fall
so you just shoved and pushed
my inside is all mushed
like jello my heart is here
and if ever saw me youd see a tear
but after you i dont know how it will be
you were my only key
to the top with glory and fame
and now im laughed at in shame
what a fuckin life it turned out to be
only if i could see
how you effected me
all my life has been a lie
i might as well just die
you should come see my cage
built in my grave
or are you not bold and brave
is your life more fucked than mine
is that you i c over there cryn
well look who had a lil fall
just a lil weight from me and that was all
you crumbled like paper
maybe emotions arent something to taper
maybe you should give me another chance
maybe you could teach me to dance
maybe you could get me off these drugs
but my lifes has a lot of trugs
so itll be round and hard
itll be sower like a tard
so you think im obessed with you
this is most defently not true
i jsut want to be with you
but you just dotn give a s..poo
if you cant see what i do
then i guess it is true
that you dont know what you want
but to sit and to taunt

i found this in my umm poem notebook i guess its from a really long time ago last year when i first started smoking