weedguru_animal wrote: Sat Apr 16, 2016 10:09 am
Wicked update, Higher! I am happy to learn of your familial joy. And glad to still have you in sporadic attendance.
Yep, sporadic maybe, but still present nonetheless....
A follow up in regards to this last post that you just read....My daughter graduated with a high school diploma in June 2016. Yay!! Absolutely the best possible gift that could have been given to a guy like me. What I wanted most for her, and seriously hoped for, and wished for her was exactly that! I dropped out of high school back in the 90's and have regretted this ever since....like seriously. At certain times in her teenage life, I was scared to death that she would make the same horrible errors that I made. Many years of worry( and frankly pure terror) throughout her teenage years that she would make the same mistakes as me, But thank god, somehow, somewhere along the line she did the exact opposite. She made the right decisions and right choices. My nightmare, my fear, my utter terrible, horrible gut wrenching feeling all these years was that she would become a mirror image of me. But you know what? Somewhere along the lines, I emphasized the fact so strongly that I DID NOT want her to become me. I needed better for my kid, she needed better. I'm far from good role model for my kids. At the end I didn't become a demonic horror, in all reality. I went through hell as a teenager. So terrible, so regrettable that I had to do my best so this wouldn't happen to my daughter, nor my son. Well you know what? All my hopes, all my efforts paid off in the end. I have 2 fuckin good kids now. Whatever I did, whatever I taught them was spot on. I did it. I wasn't wrong, I was right.I became a successful father in the end. It's a damn priceless feeling...It took a long time, ,many years to realize that I was actually on a successful road concerning their upbringing. I truly believe that my mistakes, my screw ups actually ended up helping my kids, saving my kids from a life of shit. I believe that whatever I did in life actually turned out to be a life saver in certain ways for my kids.
So yeah people, if you have kids or want kids don't underestimate what you can do, how your pasts can benefit your children. Let them know who you were. and who you have become...the two things are totally different things eh. Plainly put, it's night and day. If you want it, you can give it to them. The best teaching material is personal experience. That is what they need. That is what they want. No textbook teaches this, however life experiences do. I am living proof of that. My kids are living proof of this.
I speak more of my daughter, as she lives with me. My son is with his father. He's has a rough road for certain reasons. But, he's doing ok too. Dropped out of high school in his grade 10 year a few months ago. He's a strong bugger though. School has been a nightmare for him for several years. Took a while to get him to talk, and tell me the truth. Mainly he's been dealing with bullies for several years. Much like what I went through....I let him be for a few weeks and then asked him if he realized how important a diploma was there days. He said yes, I know. I'm not quitting permanently but I can't go to this high school anymore. (There's only 1 english high school in my very french city in Quebec) I hate it, I can't deal with it, can't do this anymore. Like my daughter, verbally and orally he is fluently billingual. However, suppose he transfers to a french school, it's pretty much a guaranteed failure. Math, science, history is very, very different. Long division in french is basically chinese to us english educated people. I told him, you know I understand what you are saying, but do you have an answer to my next question? What are you going to do then? He says ya, I know what I'm going to do. I've already failed my level 4, so in September I'm signing up at the adult education school. I'm getting my diploma there. The 2 years he is now lacking can be completed in as little as 1 year. Wow, little bugger, he figured this out on his own. Freaking surprised me, dumbfounded me even. Dropping out is not an option for him. Wow, he must have an angel guiding him...
Neither of my kids do drugs or drink either....pretty freaking awesome kids. Guardian angel maybe? Like wtf...Someone, something, is looking after them....though I'm not exactly a believer it seems as if both kids have been assigned something special like that...there seems to be a certain unexplained presence....seems like both might be accompanied by a surreal presence. Kinda scary, yet kinda not....