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pkkupo
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Regarded wrote:why do you want to stop gore?

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Gorecore
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I just don't find getting high as fun as it used to be. For the last year or two, it seems like when I get high all I do is sit around and think depressing thoughts about how shitty life is. Before, I'd get high and laugh, giggle, play lots of guitar and video games, and have a great time. Now I just get into a sad state and start thinking about how insignificant I am...how insignificant we all are. And if I wasn't getting sad, I was getting very jittery and nervous/paranoid and couldn't enjoy my high.
So I'm giving it up for as long as I can. In a way, I'm hoping it's permanent.
So I'm giving it up for as long as I can. In a way, I'm hoping it's permanent.

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pkkupo
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^Ah, I see. I totally feel you, dude. Allow me to share my long term, all-encompassing weed-smoking life anecdote... The short version...
I was the same way when I started smoking, just as I'm sure we all were...giggly, playing video games, watching epic movies and being silly... As I continued smoking into my later years in high school and beyond, I started to feel like you, gore. Depressed, contemplative, and all around shitty, and not really knowing why... But after some time passed I decided that if I was being honest with myself that I was so sad when stoned because I wasn't were I wanted to be in life and I wasn't doing nearly enough to achieve any sort of direction that would help me get there. I came to this realization, I think, because I am an inherent introvert and become much more so when high in the sense that I am much more self aware and honest with myself. But yeah, I started going to school, doing kickboxing, and taking responsibility for my well being and happiness. I then started to be able to enjoy being high again...
BTW - I'm not suggesting in any way that this is what's happening to you, I'm just trying to point out that there is hope for the future of happy weed smoking.
I was the same way when I started smoking, just as I'm sure we all were...giggly, playing video games, watching epic movies and being silly... As I continued smoking into my later years in high school and beyond, I started to feel like you, gore. Depressed, contemplative, and all around shitty, and not really knowing why... But after some time passed I decided that if I was being honest with myself that I was so sad when stoned because I wasn't were I wanted to be in life and I wasn't doing nearly enough to achieve any sort of direction that would help me get there. I came to this realization, I think, because I am an inherent introvert and become much more so when high in the sense that I am much more self aware and honest with myself. But yeah, I started going to school, doing kickboxing, and taking responsibility for my well being and happiness. I then started to be able to enjoy being high again...
BTW - I'm not suggesting in any way that this is what's happening to you, I'm just trying to point out that there is hope for the future of happy weed smoking.

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im sorry to hear how the herb has turned on you gore
i hope things work out the way you want them too
AND! just cause you quit the weed, dont quit the weedguru. your fucking hilarious
things you said pkkupo are prolly really relevant in alot of peoples lives, thanks for sharing your story.
i hope things work out the way you want them too
AND! just cause you quit the weed, dont quit the weedguru. your fucking hilarious
things you said pkkupo are prolly really relevant in alot of peoples lives, thanks for sharing your story.

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Caustic sarcasm? lol. J/k. I felt compelled for that very reason, of course...abby wrote:things you said pkkupo are prolly really relevant in alot of peoples lives, thanks for sharing your story.
qft.abby wrote:AND! just cause you quit the weed, dont quit the weedguru. your fucking hilarious

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I think pkkupo hit the nail right on the head.
I'm 35 years old, and when you think about it, I'm basically at the half-way point of my life if I only live to be 70. I've done nothing with my life after high school but a lame attempt at going back to school for a year and a half and then dropping out once I realized being an accountant wasn't what I wanted to do with my life. I've worked at least 10 jobs in the past 20 years and none of them have been rewarding or gave me any kind of experience to pursue any kind of a career outside of the retail world (which I hate, too).
Weed has been holding me back. Instead of sitting down and doing rational thinking that'll help guide me to a path I'd much rather be walking, I'd get high and say, "Ahh, fuck it." I've been using weed to escape from reality and while doing that, I've been putting my shit life in a depressing holding pattern. Work a shit job/get high/get depressed and repeat over and over.
So until I figure out what I want to do and where I want to go in life, I'm going to have a very long (and possibly permanent) break from weed.
The only thing I really love (besides creating music) is fucking around with computers. I enjoy tearing them apart, re-building them, working with operating systems and how they work, etc. So I've been thinking about going to school sometime soon to get a degree/diploma in a computer related field that allows me to do a job that is less like "going to work" and more about "having a little fun while earning some money."
I'm 35 years old, and when you think about it, I'm basically at the half-way point of my life if I only live to be 70. I've done nothing with my life after high school but a lame attempt at going back to school for a year and a half and then dropping out once I realized being an accountant wasn't what I wanted to do with my life. I've worked at least 10 jobs in the past 20 years and none of them have been rewarding or gave me any kind of experience to pursue any kind of a career outside of the retail world (which I hate, too).
Weed has been holding me back. Instead of sitting down and doing rational thinking that'll help guide me to a path I'd much rather be walking, I'd get high and say, "Ahh, fuck it." I've been using weed to escape from reality and while doing that, I've been putting my shit life in a depressing holding pattern. Work a shit job/get high/get depressed and repeat over and over.
So until I figure out what I want to do and where I want to go in life, I'm going to have a very long (and possibly permanent) break from weed.
The only thing I really love (besides creating music) is fucking around with computers. I enjoy tearing them apart, re-building them, working with operating systems and how they work, etc. So I've been thinking about going to school sometime soon to get a degree/diploma in a computer related field that allows me to do a job that is less like "going to work" and more about "having a little fun while earning some money."

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pkkupo
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We'll do it together, man! Part of my newfound self-awareness and admittance was realizing the only things I'm truly curious about are things like physics, astronomy, digital electronics, and other sciencey stuff. I just couldn't admit it because I was afraid I couldn't make it big doing any of those things...Afraid of failure in something I was passionate about...Sucks that I didn't go for it....
I've I just started taking programming classes last spring and will be continuing in the fall, though. We'll start our own computer repair/development company.....Gorepo Digitals inc......We'll work on the name later....
I've I just started taking programming classes last spring and will be continuing in the fall, though. We'll start our own computer repair/development company.....Gorepo Digitals inc......We'll work on the name later....

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Aw that's too bad man. I wish you all the best. I'm sure we all will stop someday...(maybe not forever, but ya know)Gorecore wrote:I just don't find getting high as fun as it used to be. For the last year or two, it seems like when I get high all I do is sit around and think depressing thoughts about how shitty life is. Before, I'd get high and laugh, giggle, play lots of guitar and video games, and have a great time. Now I just get into a sad state and start thinking about how insignificant I am...how insignificant we all are. And if I wasn't getting sad, I was getting very jittery and nervous/paranoid and couldn't enjoy my high.
So I'm giving it up for as long as I can. In a way, I'm hoping it's permanent.
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Hey guys. Just stopping in for a status update since I haven't been here in a while. Got arrested on monday night... 
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the movie is what i was talking about and if you liked Pirates of the Carribean youll like this.andriaSRH wrote:^ The game or the movie? The movie looks kinda lame imo.
I am hungry all the time. Even when I'm not smoking. I hope I'm not preggers, that would succckkkkk.

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