I was a monster

[Gustave420]

I hurt the woman i love a few years back (not with violance or anything)
I had to leave the state due to circumstances out side my controll. i visited her every chance i had, through rain snow and shit. i had been lingering around her since i got back in town. i thought i could accept the thought she had a life of her own that didn't include me. well today i sent her the last mesage i will send her telling her good bye, i love her very much.

A few years ago i wouldn't have cared, but somthing changed in me when i was with her. i felt happy. now that i said good bye, it hurts, it hurts so bad, it unbearable. but i guess i deserve it.

[Mate]

. i visited her every chance i had, through rain snow and shit.

shitstorms are the worst.

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why you've been a monster ?

[MatteN]

over 3 billion women on this planet, get a new one

[Mate]

well

if he hurted her feelings, it's too late.
if you want her back, get ready to work as much as the Egyptians did.
the worst thing to do to a girl, is to kid with her feelings.
they are SENSITIVE.

anwyay....

[roskilde]

the worst thing to do to a girl, is to kid with her feelings.
they are SENSITIVE.

yup

anyway, it sounds like you had to leave town, and while you were gone she got over you... so why do you feel like a monster? you didn't do anything wrong... or am I missing something?

[Gustave420]

the worst thing to do to a girl, is to kid with her feelings.
they are SENSITIVE.

yup

anyway, it sounds like you had to leave town, and while you were gone she got over you... so why do you feel like a monster? you didn't do anything wrong... or am I missing something?

i feel like a monster because she ws waiting and waiting for me to return, having break downs wondering if i was dead. that ay not seem like uch but to a woman, it worse than it sounds.

[Dr. Greenthumb]

Out of curiosity did she use to be a member here?

[AbbyRoad]

honey, take it from me girls can take alot of hurting. as long as they are in love. and if you really love her and want her back you should take the chance and try. if she waited so long she prolly still loves you or that love is just waitign to be rekindled. its worth a try when you love someone

[roskilde]

i feel like a monster because she ws waiting and waiting for me to return, having break downs wondering if i was dead. that ay not seem like uch but to a woman, it worse than it sounds.

ahh i see. chances are, she probably still loves you.. so try to get her back! maybe she thought you got over her as you were away. it can't hurt to try.

[(weedguru)scarf]

so u ran off and didnt tell her?

[mr_pickle]

shitstorms are the worst.

ahahahahaha

[Gustave420]

Out of curiosity did she use to be a member here?

yes

[Gustave420]

i feel like a monster because she ws waiting and waiting for me to return, having break downs wondering if i was dead. that ay not seem like uch but to a woman, it worse than it sounds.

ahh i see. chances are, she probably still loves you.. so try to get her back! maybe she thought you got over her as you were away. it can't hurt to try.

I don't think she would ever love me again, She blocked me on every site we both are on. she hates me. i hope she doesn't but i wouldn't blame her if she did hate me. i can't change a damn thing. all i know is it feels like this rip all over me, that just keeps getting worse, having trouble sleeping, i can't sleep i dream about her, and when im awake i think about her. nothing is fun anymore, nothing looks pretty or colorful. nothing seems to be worth it. i should have never left. and you know what the worst thing of all here is? That even though i learned my lession, ill never stop feeling that pain that lession had taught me. never. it will always be ripping at me. i tried talking to other girls, but they all have somthing that looks like her, eyes, nose, chin, hand, stomach, her ass, her breasts, her wit, her intelligence, words, ways they walk, im obsessing, i never obssesed about anything before her. it driving me crazy, i can't be near her because i can't hold her, can't be away because i miss her. I Don't understand any of this. thats just how it is.

[weedguru_animal]

Love, proper Love that is, not only blinds the best of us from a person's flaws,but when it is True, between two people, it demands to be fought for, tooth and nail...People have different perceptions of Love and different methods for seeking it and harnessing it. I would very much like to say that from my experience, fortune favours the Brave in Matters of the Heart, but that would be a terrible Lie...In my world, the worst thing anyone can do, is to lie about their feelings to a person who loves them dearly and clearly. The worst Sin. But one which happens all too regularly. If I was King, emotional marauders would be extinguished, after having their eyes gouged out...Love, is what I seek in general, with a female, with friends and family, with any decent creatures really.

Well doubt that has helped matters, but maybe this will: I remember a line or two of Hunter's which went a little something like this...."Love, when compromized in any way, becomes something else. Because real love can never be compromized." It was most likely worded more intelligently than that, but the jist of it is clear I hope. Good luck...

[weedguru tom]

you will get over her man, i know it hurts and when u wake up its the first thing u think about, and think whats is she doin right this min? is she thinkin about me? well dood this will wash away with time, when u get over her u will know it,