Utterly Confused

[PuffPuffGive]

Okay Im going to try making this as short as I can. Im supposed to be moving up state in a few months and I have a girlfriend. Now shes pretty much been my best friend for like 5 years now (although we only really started dating a few months ago, and its wonderful Im an idiot for taking so long but thats another story.) Now Ive always considered high school "love" to be silly kids confused by hormones. But now that the times getting closer I find myself thinking more and more about what it will be like without her in my life, and its horrible. I almost feel physically sick. Ive even gone as far as to think of ludicrous ideas like moving out or whatnot (howver at this point its still just fantasy, I dont know if I could really say screw you dad Im staying.) I also realize that would at the very least be a huge deciding factor in what happens in my life not to mention quite possibly my biggest fuck up EVER. But then I start thinking about it and what if leaving HER is the biggest fuck up ever? I dont throw around the word love casually. Ive never told a girlfriend that I loved them because I havent, there is a huge difference with an obsessive-like infatuation and love, but this isnt that, I cant even explain it. She is completley understanding, she tells me that after we both graduate we could find each other again but wer only at the end of sophomore year, and I fins it impossible to believe that in 2 years we could jsut find each other and it'll all be the same again. Damn Im lost.

Cheers

[Jay212]

in my experience, friendships/relationships always deteriorate. If moving upstate means getting a good job that will make you lots of money in the future, or even schooling, I would do it. Nothing lasts forever isn't just a saying for nothing.

[sickkid90]

i have a girl best freind, and she gets in a lot of relatioships and cries when they are over cuz the guys are usually fags, and its not that i like her, cuz i used to but kinda gave up so now im just like w.e...... but i unnno someday maybe i hope that she sees who was always there and stuff.....


ahhh... life sucks

[(weedguru)scarf]

sorry mate... but reality is if its meant to be... then it will happen...
but you should prepare for it not working out..

long distance sucks... trust me i did it for two years...
and i lost my best friend out of it...

[blazedsubaru]

You have to know things come to an end.

I just had the conversation with Miranda... "In 2 years I'm moving to the midwest or somewhere"....she is so against going to college anywhere near where we are now, and he mom is moving out to Kansas when she graduates high school.

That conversation hurts, because I know my time is limited.

[Rory]

You have to know things come to an end.

I just had the conversation with Miranda... "In 2 years I'm moving to the midwest or somewhere"....she is so against going to college anywhere near where we are now, and he mom is moving out to Kansas when she graduates high school.

That conversation hurts, because I know my time is limited.

That happened to me, I was with my girlfriend all last year knowing that in August 2006 she was moving away to Halifax to go to Kings College. I tried to hard not to get close to her but it ended up happening and the day she left was the saddest day of my life. But the story takes an interesting turn here. She decides she loves me and moves back and risks everything just to be by my side. It's wonderful. Now we're living the life we've both wanted for so long and I don't plan on letting this relationship go downhill any time soon. So things don't always come to an end, or a bad one, sometimes but not always.

puff, how far upstate, are there busses, e.t.c.??

[PuffPuffGive]

^^ panhandle area, a good 8-10 hour drive. The only problem is, for other reasons, I cannot get my license until I turn 18.

Cheers