going to na meetings and im screwed.

[Insipid44]

well i got cuaght doing yay and heroin, which was a dumb move on my part because i never do hard shit like that. ive been smokin herb for years and recently due to stress started doin coke and oxys and then did heroin once. i bounced out of my home and ran away 2 hours away to live with a couple of junkies. got arrested the night down there and then got picked up again 4 nights later cuz i passed out from klonopins in a condo parking lot (we all got kicked out of where we were stayin and i decided the life of a heroin junkie was not for me so i skated out on them too) i was going to go to rehab but because i havent been doing coke but a month or so i decided not too. problem is im back home with my mom but she has me on a mad short leash and i have to go to aa and na meetings 7 days a week. so all i hear about is how bad drugs are and blah blah blah we are all loners and we need to find god and that im a drug addict and alcoholic. i mean yeah i think harder drugs are bad and shit but not killer. anyways im clean 29 days today not one drink one shot one line one pill but mainly not one bowl or j or blunt. i just dont know what to do about this whole situation. like since i stopped smoking my mind is becoming alot more clearer but i feel like ive been missing out on herb big time. they say in na that you can do so much more without drugs and weed and alcohol but seriously the best times of my life or at least some of them have been me really high or drunk. and everyday i get closer and closer to going out and picking up an 8 boy and chillin on that. problem is my mom knows and shes all up and down my shit constantly and other than going to work and meetings i cant really leave the house.

a little help please?

[Gorecore]

Don't do heroin anymore. Doing it even once because you're curious or "too messed up to care" is just plain wrong. Heroin isn't just a drug you do casually. It fucks with your brain so much when you do it that first time that you start rewiring your brain immediately and you might be hooked without even knowing it. Weed is a-ok to do in moderation as well.

If you're running away from home and then being forced to live with your mom, I'd guess that makes you fall in the 14-16 year old category? If so, I'd "do my time" at the AA and NA meetings until they're done. Consider it your prison sentence for being a 'tard. As far as being forced to live with your mother, I don't know what your living situation is like with her. If she is telling you to go to school and do your homework...OH HORRORS! Get your education. That's your job at that age. You'll thank yourself later.

If your mom is abusive or argues with you all the time, then try to explain that to whatever power it is that placed you with her. Maybe they can accomodate and let you move in with an uncle or grandparent?

Take it easy with the partying a bit. You don't want to turn into a complete dope fiend where you're scratching your body in anticipation of your next fix...or worse, sucking dick for a rock of crack.

I totally advocate the use of pot. Among minors (under 19...the year you finish growing) I'd say it's okay to experiment with it with infrequent use. However, maybe you're the type of personality, or someone with it built into you genetically, who tries something that alters your perceptions and physical capabilities to be so amazing that you need more and more.

Be careful.