calling all heavy cannabis users... (help please!)

Mind Terrorist · Post by **Mind Terrorist** » Sat Sep 11, 2004 8:45 am

hello there, i've been smoking weed for the past 3 years. the first year or so was only about an eighth / a quarter a week, the second year was a bit more, like half ounce a week, and this past year i got into dealing to help my mates out and i've been smoking about an ounce and a half a week (i buy 3 ounces a week, deal half of each ounce off in eighths and pay a tenner of my money in order to get half for 10 quid).

ANYWAY, i was wondering if weed has changed anybody in here. i don't want people answering who smoke a teenth every week or so - i would like the heavy users to help me out on this one please. let me explain why i'm bothered:-

i've been with my girlfriend for nearly 9 months now. the first 4-5 months were ace, we were dead close and everything. she smokes pot, so i started smoking it a bit more often and getting stoned like every day. i was happy, sociable, fun to be with and i didn't flip over little things that really didn't mean anything, and i didn't take anything to heart. those days were good, and that's where i wanna be again.

however, with progressively heavier usage, i started changing into a more insecure person. it started as little things - like me having a go if she said something to offend me, etc. then my paranoia grew (but i've already posted a topic on that so i won't ramble on that subject). it just got worse and the last few months have not felt the same at all.

i am wondering if there is any way cannabis could have done this - if it hasn't, that is one load off my mind and i can cut down and still smoke but pack the dealing in and go back to how i first started. however, if it is the weed then i'm sick to death of what it's doing to me and i'm gonna have to pack it in because i've tried so hard to control how i show my emotions and i've tried NOT to get jealous or paranoid if my girlfriend goes out with a load of guys that i don't know and she has just met but it's so hard.

i've become a very insecure person, and i'm guessing a lot of you will slate me down to the ground. just to let you know, i still don't get bothered about people slating me, however i know i've been weird with her and i'm so lucky she's given me another chance.

i'm just so scared to lose her and i KNOW that what i did was the complete opposite of what i was supposed to do, and i'm gonna try my hardest to get back to my normal self. i miss my old self to be honest.

this is my second day without weed in 8 months. it feels different - i'm not sure if i feel better or worse than i have been over the last few months - but i'm definitely going to cut down and ease out > chill and if i get offended or paranoid or jealous then i guess i'll have to lock it inside.

my girlfriend is the nicest girl ever and i hate myself for what i've done to her. if i could change back time and rid me of my current self then i would - if i knew pot would do this to me i'd never of started.

so has anybody got any advice for me please? has weed effected people's mood swings or emotional security?? please don't try and insult me, for one it won't work and 2 - nobody can possibly make me feel worse about myself than i already do. i'm after ''guru coundelling'' >>> not bad vibes.

any help would be appreciated, thank you for reading.

riff · Post by **riff** » Sat Sep 11, 2004 11:00 am

sorry man, no advice but i hear what your saying. i've been smoking pretty much every day for 18 months or so and have felt fine up until the last couple of months. weed has definetley made me more withdrawn and kind of insecure. like yourself, i've recently started to take things to heart. it doesn't sound like much but i find myself thinking about everything too much. its hard to explain but it i think too much, which leads to bad thoughts which sucks because i'm super sensitive anyway!

i really don't know if its the weed, mushrooms or it happened naturally so don't go changing your habbits because i feel similar. sorry i couldn't help.

Sat Sep 11, 2004 1:02 pm

Mind Terrorist wrote:hello there

I stopped reading here!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Sep 11, 2004 1:07 pm

A_Fire_Inside wrote:
Mind Terrorist wrote:hello there
I stopped reading here!!

same.

BGDetroit · Post by **BGDetroit** » Sat Sep 11, 2004 4:31 pm

Ive been smokin for about 5-6 years, Heavy my first year. Then slow for a couple years. Last three years or so been heavy smokin, Ive smoked about four dubies this mornin so far and its only 12:00 PM. So i smoke a bit...

Well, You asked has weed changed me, Yes it has. In a big way, Some good, Some bad. But everything has ups and downs. I used to always be pissed off, Always. I went to school and even my bus driver would call us nuttin but "Villa Rats"(Lived in a place called Tha Villa.) We never had much of toys or food, I remeber havin like charitys back in the day willing to help us out, Like the salvation army would bring us canned food and a couple toys for us on christmas eve and that way we had some food and some toys to open up on christmas. I remeber my dad would give us 50 dollars max for all the school clothes. Wed always have like 4 dollar pair of shoes n shit, And hed go spend a 100-150 on a ounce. So that fucked up my head. His buzz is more important than his kids... So i went thru some shit as a kid, And ended up jus bein so pissed off like most people from here did, Jus didnt give a fuck. Ima do whatever i have to to make money. I was 10 years old stealin bikes and sellin em, Stealin food from the store so i could eat.

Then i started smokin heavier, And it changed my whole out look on life. Now i feel i have something to live for. I mean now, Im jus trying to go to where i have to, Get my work done, And get out of there. Then after im done i can be myself again. Right now with school, I think about it like i think of prison, Ima go there, Do my time, Do my work, And get the fuck out. Then i get to come home and relax my mind by sparkin some buddha. So i feel its made me a better person, Its made me mature from the young punk i once was. So for me, I feel im going to keep smoking, I feel its helping me out now.

But now in your situation, Maybe cutting down will do you good, Trying it wont kill you. Try it and see what ti does. You might end up angry alot cuz i notice alot of heavy smokers when they dont smoke for a day or two little shit will jus tick them off. Maybe jus smoke less from now on and thatll help. IMO being partly paranoid is jus part of smoking weed, Most people that smoke weed end up paranoid about something, Jus dont be excessive about it. But thinking about it, I used to be a angry lil punk n didnt give a fuck, Weed calmed me down and makes me think clearer now. From what it sounds it sounds you were a more mellow dude from the start, And smokin is making your paranoid n freak out, So maybe its doing the oppostie to you. Maybe cuttin the dealin and not peefin as much will help you out. I think its worth a try. Hope i helped out some and didnt write all this for nuttin homie lol.

Dr. Greenthumb · Post by **Dr. Greenthumb** » Sat Sep 11, 2004 4:38 pm

stop smokin a couple weeks see how it goes or just dont smoke as much maybe only a couple times in the week...as for your girl people change dont blame it on pot

Mind Terrorist · Post by **Mind Terrorist** » Sat Sep 11, 2004 11:21 pm

DrGrEEnThUMb wrote:as for your girl people change dont blame it on pot

i don't know that, which is why i'm asking everybody. BGDetroit gave some really good advice. if i knew that i was changing and it had nothing to do with weed then i would get proper thinking and chill that way, and carry on smoking. but i don't know if it's me, or if the pot is starting to change me.

anywho, i was out today and had n pot until about 4.20pm till not (12.20am) and i had a ball, i'm getting on well with my g/f again and it feels great.

Dr. Greenthumb · Post by **Dr. Greenthumb** » Sun Sep 12, 2004 4:40 pm

cool

Weedguru Cusmar · Post by **Weedguru Cusmar** » Sun Sep 12, 2004 9:12 pm

these past couple of weeks i've tried shrooms and pills for the first time and started college, i dunno wot the fuk happened but even i know i've changed, unfortunately i can't post wot's changed and i've just realised, that could be helpful

callmeandy · Post by **callmeandy** » Mon Sep 13, 2004 12:53 am

ive been an on and off heavy smoker, and here is what i've learned

my advice: dont be a heavy smoker, make weed a treat, once every 4-7 days, i make the weekend my time to smoke and that way it gives me somethin to look forward to, i have less resistance, and i spend less. i understand what u guys are sayin' but if you think that weed is fukin with you, and u dont want to stop smokin, try this.

the mac · Post by **the mac** » Mon Sep 13, 2004 6:21 am

if i could go 4-7 days without weed i would.. after a day i get so shakkky and i just need to get high n shit its justy on my mind i couldnt imagine waiting a whole week.

if smoking is fuckin you up, and changED you.. wut more can you do? your changed your differant.. i say keep smoking.

BGDetroit · Post by **BGDetroit** » Mon Sep 13, 2004 12:58 pm

Mac Dre wrote:if i could go 4-7 days without weed i would.. after a day i get so shakkky and i just need to get high n shit its justy on my mind i couldnt imagine waiting a whole week.

if smoking is fuckin you up, and changED you.. wut more can you do? your changed your differant.. i say keep smoking.

I feel the same way, A day without weed and i start jus getting all like tense and pissed off, Everything could be fine and i jus want to fight people n shit.

Oh well tho, Weed changed me, Im addicted to it, And its a drug. But im aware of what im doing, I know what its doing to me, And im willing to take the risk. So ima keept tokin...

flynn · Post by **flynn** » Mon Sep 13, 2004 1:28 pm

BGDetroit wrote:But im aware of what im doing, I know what its doing to me, And im willing to take the risk. So ima keept tokin...

thats a good way of looking at it. i am a very heavy pot smoker but i am aware of what i am doing and try not to let it dictate my life. if i feel that it is taking over then i will muster the willpower to cut back. it scares the shit out of me sometimes, which is why i stay away from most drugs and stick to green and booze. only occassionally will i spoil myself with other drugs.....

peace

BUDA · Post by **BUDA** » Mon Sep 13, 2004 2:36 pm

its ok if you can go without it for 4 to 7 days but i just can't if i don't smoke for a day i crave for it and can't even really explain why the only way to cut down is to buy less or have less on you that way you can't smoke more. i pick up an 8th a week (if i got the cash its half) which sorta does me for smoking but i no people who go smoke more like 2 onces a week and there even more fucked than me.

it sometimes makes me sad noing that i waste so much money on weed but thats what makes me happy so it balances me out again

oh anyways i dnt really no what to say but if you cut down ur be more happy i guess

clashcityrocker · Post by **clashcityrocker** » Mon Sep 13, 2004 9:24 pm

Weed makes some people irritable. i smoke every day and i guess im a pretty nice person. if i had a girlfriend i wouldnt be fuckin yelling at her, and if i did I DEFINETLY wouldnt blame it on weed

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