I have a bit of personal knowledge concerning addictions, drug detox/therapy etc. I once attended a 6 month drug rehab program years back. For cocaine snorting though, not heroin. Though I did get to know several heroin junkies during that therapy. I've also attended several Alcoholics and Narcotics Anonymous meetings over the course of my life.
Sprize, one really important thing that you said that really stood out to me is this :
SpRi7e wrote:I want....no....NEED to become clean, sober...and not be MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY..ADDICTED to HEROIN, let alone ANY drug there is in this world. I fucked up SOOO big guys and FULLY understand it. IDK why I really wrote this, but I feel like it's VERY step 1 of becoming clean and confronting my problem.
You are totally right man, it is indeed the first and most important step. Most people with addictions are in denial, and sadly those folks have little chance of making it because of that. You know you have a problem, and you understand it. That right there is indeed a VERY BIG step man. It's actually the first step in the 12 step Narcotics Anonymous programs that are used in rehab
Reaching out for help, is another key step. You've already started that, just by telling us what you've told us. You can't beat a heroin addiction alone. You need help from other sources. I don't just mean going to a detox center, I mean moral support as well. You need to confide in your Dad. From the sounds of it, he already knows anyways...he's probably waiting for YOU to come forward on your own. From little things you've mentionned about your Dad on the boards over the years, I get the impression you have an awesome, open minded father who really loves his son. I don't think he'd want you to go through all this alone. Yes, he'll be saddened like any loving parent would be. But what's worse? Causing him sadness by revealing your addiction secret and asking for his support, or saddening him by visiting you at the State Pennetentiary through a glass window or even worse ID'ing your body in the county morgue? That's where heroin addicts who don't get help end up.
Like someone else said, you have a lot going for you. And alot more good to come in the future if you make the right decisions..
.life saving decisions like you said
SpRi7e wrote: I graduated from my school about a month and a half ago.. been currently still working at my job that I've had for the past 2 years and currently seeking a career job for IT work. I've fully decided I don't want a career in IT work and want to get in the Psychology field and get my masters in it once I straiten my life out for the long journey
You're right, rehab is gonna be a nightmare. But the longer you wait, the worse things are gonna get. You gotta take things one day at a time, one step at a time. Don't try to leap over the mountain in one big bound, you'll only fall back down the hill onto the rocks below. But if you climb that mountain one tiny step at a time you'll make it to the summit. And the climb will be easier with the right rock climbing safety equipment (=moral support)
You should consider maybe going to a Narcotics Anonymous meeting before rehab. You'll get to know some great people there, they have wonderful support systems setup. The key to a successful rehab is greatly due to the support system you have.
The best tip I can give you about the rehabilitation process is that you've got to approach everything with an open mind, willingness and honesty. Most rehab programs are based on the Narcotics Anonymous 12 steps and 12 traditions. That revolves around spirituality, and alot of people have a hard time accepting that. That's where the open mindness comes into play. I personally battled with that aspect of rehab myself
Please come back with updates Spri7e, I'd really like to know how things are going , where you are headed with all this, and where things will take you.
Don't ever be shy, you can say what you want here. That's the coolness of Weedguru
Take care man, sincerely, take care.