Y'know what's really weird?
Posted: Wed Jan 03, 2007 3:40 pm
Those who know me here know that I am a dedicated weed smoker and have been for quite some time. I never smoked massive quantities. I'd smoke an average of 1 or 2 grams per day with more being smoked on my days off work. I didn't really keep track but I'd say I smoked daily for around 2 or 3 years.
One day I smoked a joint as usual and I didn't enjoy my high very much. I felt really panicked, my heart rate was really high, and I just couldn't settle down. I had to lay in bed and close my eyes and think good thoughts. I had to keep telling myself that I was only high and to enjoy my trip...but I couldn't. I didn't puke or freak out or anything. Eventually my high subsided and I fell asleep and returned to my normal "not high" self.
Ever since that somewhat bad trip, I haven't smoked much weed at all. This all happened about 2 weeks ago. Even now when I have a great opportunity to get high with no worries at all, I don't feel like smoking. I've had 4 joints rolled for at least a week and I still haven't touched them.
I don't really understand what happened to me. Now when I think about having a toke, I don't get my usual feelings of, "Oh man, getting high is going to be so amazing!" I keep thinking, "Oh shit. I want to toke but what if I have the same shitty experience of really disliking my high?"
The only plus side to this whole situation is that I'm not spending money on weed anymore. I've had the same stash of weed for almost a month now, when normally it would have been gone 3 weeks ago.
Maybe it's my body and mind telling me it's time to take a small break from toking? Has anyone else felt this way before? I miss getting high...and it's so strange to have the means to get high within my grasp but no real urge to smoke. Am I considered stranger than normal?
One day I smoked a joint as usual and I didn't enjoy my high very much. I felt really panicked, my heart rate was really high, and I just couldn't settle down. I had to lay in bed and close my eyes and think good thoughts. I had to keep telling myself that I was only high and to enjoy my trip...but I couldn't. I didn't puke or freak out or anything. Eventually my high subsided and I fell asleep and returned to my normal "not high" self.
Ever since that somewhat bad trip, I haven't smoked much weed at all. This all happened about 2 weeks ago. Even now when I have a great opportunity to get high with no worries at all, I don't feel like smoking. I've had 4 joints rolled for at least a week and I still haven't touched them.
I don't really understand what happened to me. Now when I think about having a toke, I don't get my usual feelings of, "Oh man, getting high is going to be so amazing!" I keep thinking, "Oh shit. I want to toke but what if I have the same shitty experience of really disliking my high?"
The only plus side to this whole situation is that I'm not spending money on weed anymore. I've had the same stash of weed for almost a month now, when normally it would have been gone 3 weeks ago.
Maybe it's my body and mind telling me it's time to take a small break from toking? Has anyone else felt this way before? I miss getting high...and it's so strange to have the means to get high within my grasp but no real urge to smoke. Am I considered stranger than normal?