Hit fairly hard...twice
Posted: Tue Sep 20, 2005 1:48 am
Today was a day like any other in my life. I woke up, showered, ate cereal, smoked a joint on the way to work, worked my 8 1/2 hours and then the shit hit the fan when I got home.
I come home to see my sister sitting with my folks and everyone is looking like something is wrong. Mom tells me she's got some upsetting news. Immediately, my brain fires off about 20 possible bad things before Mom has a chance to tell me what's wrong.
Comes to be that my 46 year old cousin Vanda killed herself today. She was married for 20 years and had a daughter starting University this year and a son still in high school. We don't know how she killed herself, but she was found this morning in their bed by her husband...dead. All we know is that it was sucide. She quit her job last week, just out of the blue.
I'm pretty saddened by the whole thing, but in all honesty...I didn't know her that well at all. I don't even think I would know who she was if she had been face to face with me at a store or something. I'm more upset because my uncle and aunt (her parents) whom im very close with are almost inconsolable. They're almost in their 70's and I'm afraid this whole thing might kill one of them.
On another great note, we get a phone call from my ex-mother-in-law inviting my mother and sister to my ex-wife's housewarming party. My ex-wife somehow managed to buy a house in a nice suburb. And yet here I sit in my parents basement barely affording to pay bills, and she's buying a fucking house.
Thank fuck I have about a gram on me tonight. Thank fuck I'm getting more weed tomorrow.
Thank fuck...'cause I need it really badly tonight.
I come home to see my sister sitting with my folks and everyone is looking like something is wrong. Mom tells me she's got some upsetting news. Immediately, my brain fires off about 20 possible bad things before Mom has a chance to tell me what's wrong.
Comes to be that my 46 year old cousin Vanda killed herself today. She was married for 20 years and had a daughter starting University this year and a son still in high school. We don't know how she killed herself, but she was found this morning in their bed by her husband...dead. All we know is that it was sucide. She quit her job last week, just out of the blue.
I'm pretty saddened by the whole thing, but in all honesty...I didn't know her that well at all. I don't even think I would know who she was if she had been face to face with me at a store or something. I'm more upset because my uncle and aunt (her parents) whom im very close with are almost inconsolable. They're almost in their 70's and I'm afraid this whole thing might kill one of them.
On another great note, we get a phone call from my ex-mother-in-law inviting my mother and sister to my ex-wife's housewarming party. My ex-wife somehow managed to buy a house in a nice suburb. And yet here I sit in my parents basement barely affording to pay bills, and she's buying a fucking house.
Thank fuck I have about a gram on me tonight. Thank fuck I'm getting more weed tomorrow.
Thank fuck...'cause I need it really badly tonight.
