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I have been really really depressed lately. It fucking sucks my fucking ass. I will get happy for about an hour then I get really depressed again. Life fucking is gay. Why do humans getting fucking depressed. I hate peer pressure to I fucking hate society. It's weird as fuck I know I have tons of friends and a bunch of girls like me but I just fucking feel like everything sucks. I want to to say it is because when ever I am home I only sit in front of the computer. Thats why I try not to come home for long periods of time. I have only been at my house for about 5 days this whole summer. I also want to blame it on being poor but its just me saying to myself no one will like you because you poor.

And no this isnt another rant. Nor Im on any kind of drug right now so this is really me.

i know how u feel bro... as soon as u see this pm me... if u have msn messanger add me drtridr1989@yahoo.com or if u have aim add me my screen name is cookboi89

CRAAAAWLING IIIIIN MY SKIIIIIIN

clashcityrocker wrote:CRAAAAWLING IIIIIN MY SKIIIIIIN

don't make fun man, he's serious. This isn't his first time postin this stuff.


I'm gong to make a smoothie with chocolate peanut butter, 1 cup of milk, a spoonfull of chocolate ice cream, some vanilla, half of a banana, and some chocolate milk powder. I've had it for breakfast for the past 6 days (replace ice cream with protien poweder) and It is good, feel good on the toungue.

You know I went through periods of my teenage years saying some of the exact same things. Mostly between 13 and 15. At first I didn't want help from anyone at all, but then I eventually accepted some counselling. And you know what? It really wasn't that bad at all. My counsellor was my confident, could tell him anything and everything. I had alot of secrets building up inside me and that was a big part of my depression. Though anti-depressors were recommended I didn't take them and got through everything just fine. And through this couselling I met other kids who were just like me. That was pretty cool cause I felt like I was the only one in the world with these problems. Your parents don't even have to know about a counsellor, you can get one for free at school ot at the youth club if you have one near you. Basically what you are doing on these boards is venting your shit out to us, kind of in a cry for help. You can do it easily here because you know that nobody really knows who you are. It makes it easier. At the time my counsellor pushed for me to get involved in some type of activity that I would enjoy. I got into mountain biking. And it did help. It was a good way to get out agressions and it gave me something to do with my time. Made me feel more worthy, it was something I was good at and I could see it. Was a self esteem booster. When I'd start to feel crummy and lonely I'd just hop onto my bike and pedal into freedom.
Hope this helps buddy...keep your head up, you can get through this.

clashcityrocker wrote:CRAAAAWLING IIIIIN MY SKIIIIIIN

lol sorry but that made me pee myself a little