Apologies for wasting your bandwith
Posted: Thu Apr 14, 2005 5:28 pm
Ok here goes Ive got a lot of feelings spiraling around in my head and I need to vent so Im gonna vent here. If you wanna read it go ahead if you dont you dont have to I just gotta type down whats going on in my head maybe I can make some sense of it......
April 14th 2005
Well here I am sitting at my computer, and as I sit here there are a few things running wild throgh my mind. First and foremost would be....... Hell its a tough descion actually. See I wish that I had more confidence with a few of the ladies. Theres one in particular at the gym that I lift at.... I mean this one Ive always thought of as a hottie, since I first got there and still to this day almost nine months later. I think she likes me too because she is always walking by when Im boxing or lifting, always says high, and always says see ya later in kind of a flirtatious sort of way. Ahh hell If I wasnt so shy....
Regardless Im down here for another two years and Ive pretty much pissed my chances away this year for any tail unless I can come away with some sort of Spring Fling.... This seems unlikely though unless I go to a party, which I probably wont.... Its funny because for the last four years of my life I loved going to parties and getting shitfaced and having a good time. Now days however I'm much happier getting stoned with a few good friends of mine and just chilling out.
LOL! Maybe some chick will say that she wants my cock! But then again Ive learned something this year that has never registered in my brain before. That is, Women are not objects! So a porno type sex scene happening in my life is quite unlikely.... Might as well find a girl to settle down with...... NO! This is not acceptable. If I settle down now I won't get the oppurtunity to travel, to see things, to see people, to expeirence different cultures. There are over two billion women In this world why pick one out now when there are so many more choices out there....... Enough of this!
Now the issue that has been pissing me off is my roommate. I cant fucking stand this kid. I mean honestly he thinks he is top shit of everything that he does. It is actually very annoying to the point of I wanna beat his head in. I wont do that though cause that would only make me look foolish and my goal is to make him look foolish. I dont know how I am going to do this but I am going to you can take my word for it. I mean it all starts when we get to class in the morning. He gets there and immediatly tries to make me feel inferior to him because he has better grades. I carry a 3.3 GPA while he carries a 3.6GPA. OOOOO... Big deal right?!
My thoughts are that if you hold your head up high and dont let people bring you down you will become more accomplished then they will. The only people that will try and bring you down are people that are on a lower level than you. They want to bring you down to their level or push you lower. I refuse to let that happen to me.No one can ruin my self esteem.
Because your self esteem makes up who and what you are. Why go through life being an ass and always feeling bad about yourself? There is no need for it. Wake up every morning look in the mirror and say "Im a good person!" "No one can bring me down"!
When someone does say something bad about another or yourself just ignore them. Who cares what there saying? For instance if you walk by and someone hollers out "Loser" or "Faggot" Either walk right by them with your head held high and dont let it bother you! Or say "I only see one loser here and it isnt me!" There goal is to bring you down and not by not letting them they are only self defeating themselves. They call you a loser or other name because thats what they are and they are trying to take the label off of themselves and put it on you. DONT LET THEM DO THIS! Be prideful, welcome new challenges, wake up with an optimistic attitude and success will follow. Never say "I cant", or "its to hard." Welcome new challenges and you will expand your knowledge and personal prestige.
Its off my chest! Cant really tell you all what exactly I just typed or whatever but I just needed to do some venting. Everyone Have a nice day and remember..... ENJOY LIFE.
-Peace out-
April 14th 2005
Well here I am sitting at my computer, and as I sit here there are a few things running wild throgh my mind. First and foremost would be....... Hell its a tough descion actually. See I wish that I had more confidence with a few of the ladies. Theres one in particular at the gym that I lift at.... I mean this one Ive always thought of as a hottie, since I first got there and still to this day almost nine months later. I think she likes me too because she is always walking by when Im boxing or lifting, always says high, and always says see ya later in kind of a flirtatious sort of way. Ahh hell If I wasnt so shy....
Regardless Im down here for another two years and Ive pretty much pissed my chances away this year for any tail unless I can come away with some sort of Spring Fling.... This seems unlikely though unless I go to a party, which I probably wont.... Its funny because for the last four years of my life I loved going to parties and getting shitfaced and having a good time. Now days however I'm much happier getting stoned with a few good friends of mine and just chilling out.
LOL! Maybe some chick will say that she wants my cock! But then again Ive learned something this year that has never registered in my brain before. That is, Women are not objects! So a porno type sex scene happening in my life is quite unlikely.... Might as well find a girl to settle down with...... NO! This is not acceptable. If I settle down now I won't get the oppurtunity to travel, to see things, to see people, to expeirence different cultures. There are over two billion women In this world why pick one out now when there are so many more choices out there....... Enough of this!
Now the issue that has been pissing me off is my roommate. I cant fucking stand this kid. I mean honestly he thinks he is top shit of everything that he does. It is actually very annoying to the point of I wanna beat his head in. I wont do that though cause that would only make me look foolish and my goal is to make him look foolish. I dont know how I am going to do this but I am going to you can take my word for it. I mean it all starts when we get to class in the morning. He gets there and immediatly tries to make me feel inferior to him because he has better grades. I carry a 3.3 GPA while he carries a 3.6GPA. OOOOO... Big deal right?!
My thoughts are that if you hold your head up high and dont let people bring you down you will become more accomplished then they will. The only people that will try and bring you down are people that are on a lower level than you. They want to bring you down to their level or push you lower. I refuse to let that happen to me.No one can ruin my self esteem.
Because your self esteem makes up who and what you are. Why go through life being an ass and always feeling bad about yourself? There is no need for it. Wake up every morning look in the mirror and say "Im a good person!" "No one can bring me down"!
When someone does say something bad about another or yourself just ignore them. Who cares what there saying? For instance if you walk by and someone hollers out "Loser" or "Faggot" Either walk right by them with your head held high and dont let it bother you! Or say "I only see one loser here and it isnt me!" There goal is to bring you down and not by not letting them they are only self defeating themselves. They call you a loser or other name because thats what they are and they are trying to take the label off of themselves and put it on you. DONT LET THEM DO THIS! Be prideful, welcome new challenges, wake up with an optimistic attitude and success will follow. Never say "I cant", or "its to hard." Welcome new challenges and you will expand your knowledge and personal prestige.
Its off my chest! Cant really tell you all what exactly I just typed or whatever but I just needed to do some venting. Everyone Have a nice day and remember..... ENJOY LIFE.
-Peace out-
Now i could get with this girl like easy as that, she's invited me round to her house tonight but i said i was busy. The reason is this girl is a dunce, i must be maturing or something cause i can't be assed to deal with this annoying girl just for sex. Seriously, talking to her on the phone then i honestly wanted to hang myself with the wire. 
