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Fucking bitch shit ass fucker asshole faggots...
Posted: Mon Apr 11, 2005 11:51 pm
by BGDetroit
AHHHH!!!
Lifes a fucking bitch.
Wensday got to go back to Lincoln Juevnile Hall Of Justice for a three hour interview.
My neighbor the crack addict has gone missin, Thinkin out dead somewhere.
Broke as a joke, Need money for quite a bit of things.
So much more bullshit, My minds been so stressed the last couple days, No buzz at all. Nothing to do to take my mind off of it, Im fucking stressed and pissed off, I cant fucking relax...
Fucking bitches...
Posted: Mon Apr 11, 2005 11:52 pm
by cutthecashflow
Refer to the 40 oz thread to take your mind off of all of this shit!.
Posted: Mon Apr 11, 2005 11:53 pm
by BGDetroit
I want a 40, But thinkin bout that makes me want one so fucking bad man, and knowing i cant have one...
I need to fight or some shit..
Posted: Mon Apr 11, 2005 11:55 pm
by cutthecashflow
LOl you sound exactly like I do the second I get off of the bud for a while.
Posted: Mon Apr 11, 2005 11:58 pm
by BGDetroit
What the fuck do you do to relax man...?
Shit i need to fucking do something. Im ready to go start a fight, Almost got in a fight earlier when some dumbass almost backed into us ni the drive thru, Blarred the horn and gave them the bird, They got out and i was like you got beef bitch, He got back in the car when he realised there was four buff guys in our car.
Fuck life man, I hate this shit..
Posted: Tue Apr 12, 2005 12:02 am
by cutthecashflow
BGDetroit wrote:What the fuck do you do to relax man...?
To be honest with you when I need to relax I go for one long ass run, or hit up the punching bag for a few good hours. Cause seriously sometimes if I dont run or lift or box I feel like Im gonna knock the first persons block off that pisses me off. You know what Im saying? Some people just need a good clobbering. some times I just wanna... some people are soo fucking stupid..... Damn MAN IVE GOTTA GET OUTTA THIS ROOM!
Posted: Tue Apr 12, 2005 12:03 am
by BGDetroit
Exactly, Fucking on the spot.
I wish i didnt break the punching bag last year when i was pissed... I was going at it so hard broke the bitch right open...
Damn man, I need to fucking die or something..
Edit: Im ready to take a hammer to my head to stop the fucking pain inside. Somebodys got to fucking die. I need to get fucking high. Damn shit
Posted: Tue Apr 12, 2005 2:21 am
by BGDetroit
I am a drug addict, I am dependent on drugs. I realize this shit when im off of drugs for awhile and im pheinin so bad for them.
Im honestly considering buying a pack of 'ports tommrow to get me by..
Posted: Tue Apr 12, 2005 2:23 am
by cutthecashflow
Allright man just got back from the bag and the tension is gone. BG go find a bag man... Remember you wanted to leave that violence and shit behind you. Join a YMCA and start boxing or running or swimming or something go for something your good at. If you wanna fight do it the legal way man. If you get drunk and fight someone some night more trouble could come out of it then you need to be in right now man... Whatever you do tho dont go hurting yourself man.
My two cents?!
Posted: Tue Apr 12, 2005 2:28 am
by BGDetroit
cutthecashflow wrote:Allright man just got back from the bag and the tension is gone. BG go find a bag man... Remember you wanted to leave that violence and shit behind you. Join a YMCA and start boxing or running or swimming or something go for something your good at. If you wanna fight do it the legal way man. If you get drunk and fight someone some night more trouble could come out of it then you need to be in right now man... Whatever you do tho dont go hurting yourself man.
My two cents?!
I appreciate your effort to try to help, But i think i just got to wait it out and wait for better days(damn, how long has it been now...). But i think after wensday ill be a little less stressed till i go back in middle of may.
I need to find a bag or something, Ive punched the shit outta walls many times before but i get cut up like crazy...
I know i shouldnt go fight some dumb fuck on the street, But damn does it relive stress. But like you said i dont need the trouble, I know that.
I wont go hurt myself if you mean it like in that way. I will never forget my homie Jesse, Killed himself when i was 11 years old and he was 13. His mom died from od'ing, Dad dyed from gang violence. Moved in with his uncle, Who would beat him senseless, And he told me days before he commited suicide that he was pissing blood and urine at the same time because of his unc beating his ass. Then that day came, He asked me to do it with him, I said i couldnt. I knew there was nothing i could do, Bout 3 minutes later... That shot rang out...
I could never do that to myself..
Edit: Its jus lifes a bitch, And at times i wish i was dead because i feel like i can not go on anymore. Ive dealt with so much, Ive ALWAYS felt like i got the world on my shoulders, and more often then not theres a ton of bricks falling on top of me and i feel like ill never get back up. But im man enough to get through the rain and the pain, And hope to be alive to see the better days.
Posted: Tue Apr 12, 2005 9:58 am
by Scratch
Ehm, my opinion is that when you're stressed like that, you shouldn't drink as much. I'm saying this cause a while ago I had to quit smoking weed for some time and it was harder than I thought. I was angry all the time, so I drank. But when I got drunk I did even stupider shit than when sober, cause alchohol made me even more aggressive.
So my advice to you is, go with sports. Go out, play basketball all day, till you can't play it any more, and when you're dead tired you won't be that nervous any more.
Posted: Tue Apr 12, 2005 10:23 am
by Cheeba
BG man, I wish I could say something that could take the pain away, I have been low and depressed like you are right now so many times. But the one time that was the worst I shall share with you.
I was with my girl, real pretty girl, I loved her loads, and she apparently
loved me loads.
Anyways, we had an arguement, broke up. I thought it wasn't for real, because I know that me and her had had our fair share of arguements, and we always pulled through. Not this time....
I saw her at school, in some older guy's arms. I was just about ready to knock the
FUCK out of this guy, but for some reason, I just stopped and froze, all the memories that I'd shared with this girl, flashed before my eyes. I took a second glance, still finding it hard to believe, then it hit me... She moved on.
And I know a girl problem is nothing like facing the cuntish arm of the law, but shit happens mate. And I felt so low, for a couple of months, just thinking where did I go wrong, what did
I do to make her go out with this.. this fucking stupid prick? I didn't go out with my boys, I didn't o anything apart from smoke copious(sp?) amounts of weed to get the pain away.
I was close to just breaking down and crying.
But the I found my saviour!!!!!
MUSIC
Some music that I listened to in those dark days really helped me, it let me know that I was not alone, people go through shit everyday, it is a factor of life. My advice would be to go to your room, stick on a CD, and just remenise of all the fun, happy good times that you have had with your mates, by yourself or anything. Just block out all the shit, and chill for a couple of hours.
Now, BG, I know this may not help you much, but I was just saying that shit happens to everyone, and my motto
Don't let the bastards grind you down
I hope that this has helped.
Stay strong BG
Peace
Posted: Tue Apr 12, 2005 11:20 am
by Weedguru_Fire_Inside
BGDetroit wrote:What the fuck do you do to relax man...?
Write some rhymes about how your feeling, then try to put sense to it. Not a good idea unless you're into the whole spiritual part of life.
Posted: Tue Apr 12, 2005 11:27 am
by Guest
I think you need some s-e-x hun
Posted: Tue Apr 12, 2005 1:11 pm
by BGDetroit
TheBigPicture wrote:Ehm, my opinion is that when you're stressed like that, you shouldn't drink as much. I'm saying this cause a while ago I had to quit smoking weed for some time and it was harder than I thought. I was angry all the time, so I drank. But when I got drunk I did even stupider shit than when sober, cause alchohol made me even more aggressive.
So my advice to you is, go with sports. Go out, play basketball all day, till you can't play it any more, and when you're dead tired you won't be that nervous any more.
Im not a angry drunk, Never have been, I can be pissed and start drinking and honestly feel more relaxed like smoking would do to me. Im going to be on house arresst supposivley thought so i cant be going out and doing shit all day...
Blaze 4 Life wrote:BG man, I wish I could say something that could take the pain away, I have been low and depressed like you are right now so many times. But the one time that was the worst I shall share with you.
I was with my girl, real pretty girl, I loved her loads, and she apparently loved me loads.
Anyways, we had an arguement, broke up. I thought it wasn't for real, because I know that me and her had had our fair share of arguements, and we always pulled through. Not this time....
I saw her at school, in some older guy's arms. I was just about ready to knock the FUCK out of this guy, but for some reason, I just stopped and froze, all the memories that I'd shared with this girl, flashed before my eyes. I took a second glance, still finding it hard to believe, then it hit me... She moved on.
And I know a girl problem is nothing like facing the cuntish arm of the law, but shit happens mate. And I felt so low, for a couple of months, just thinking where did I go wrong, what did I do to make her go out with this.. this fucking stupid prick? I didn't go out with my boys, I didn't o anything apart from smoke copious(sp?) amounts of weed to get the pain away.
I was close to just breaking down and crying.
But the I found my saviour!!!!!
MUSIC
Some music that I listened to in those dark days really helped me, it let me know that I was not alone, people go through shit everyday, it is a factor of life. My advice would be to go to your room, stick on a CD, and just remenise of all the fun, happy good times that you have had with your mates, by yourself or anything. Just block out all the shit, and chill for a couple of hours.
Now, BG, I know this may not help you much, but I was just saying that shit happens to everyone, and my motto
Quote:
Don't let the bastards grind you down
I hope that this has helped.
Stay strong BG
Peace
Music deff helps me alot through the pain, Ive been through what you talked about there too. I appreciate the effort to try to help me, But like you said, Stay strong, And ima have too, I have no other choice.
AFI wrote:Write some rhymes about how your feeling, then try to put sense to it. Not a good idea unless you're into the whole spiritual part of life.
I dont usually write down ryhmes but freestyling helps me take my mind offa shit alot.
Jus.Me.N.My.Pipe. wrote:I think you need some s-e-x hun
Deffinitley. Id take a bit of stress of my mind, Would be relived lol...
If your willing to come to D-Town...
Naa im jus kidding. Im hoping to wait till my court shits over with to be honest, Well im not going to be looking for any till its done and over with, Dosent mean i wouldnt do it before lol.