Turns out I did really good on that entrance exam I had. I thought that maybe I would scrape by but then I heard I did good enough to impress certain staff/administration at the medical school. Not only my test scores but my recommendation letters and my time in abroad in the field....I'm starting to realize that this isn't necessarily a good thing. If I would have just scraped by and relied more on my connections to get in they wouldn't be expecting much from me, but now I feel like they're gonna want the world out of me and I don't know all that much about the profession.
The reality is starting to set in, what I have left of my time off should probably be spent reviewing and memorizing all the material. Yet so far all I do is sit at work and play infectonator most of the day then go out in the evening. The reality is starting to set in that the next year of my life is going to be nothing but school for 10-12 hours a day and I'm not sure if I can handle that for that whole first year.
Now I know for sure that all my procrastination and hesitance to study was because I wouldn't have minded waiting another year to get in. It would have been another year of saving money and partying with the friends, it would have been fun. Still even with all my slacking it looks like my chances of getting in this year are pretty good.
I feel like I'm going down this path that I'm not in full control of and not even sure if it's what I want, but it feels right so I've just been going along with it.
“Cannibalism? Racism? Dude, that’s not for us ... those decisions are better left to the suits in Washington. We’re just here to eat some dude!”
-Charlie Kelly
sometimes you just have to go with the flow man...
enjoy the rest of your free time and use it to get into the mindset that
you will have to work hard next year...
just went out to a car lot since my truck shit out on me.
there is a 2005 chevy malibu ls for 5700$ that i think im going to buy, no visible dents at all and just a few scratches on the hood/bumper from stones/the blockheater cord, only problem is that it has very high kms, it has something like 130,000kms when it should have about 60,000.
Erm, 'scuse me Andria, sell pot and wash dishes two days a week or something...
I rolled by myself last night for the first time... All discretion aside, here's what I did;
-Got naked immediately.
-Wrapped myself in a blanket and went out on my balcony.
-Chain-smoked about 5-6 cigarettes while listening to a prog-metal band called "Circus Maximus".
-After about an hour and a half of that, I came back inside and picked up my classical guitar. (Still naked)
-I've never made such beautiful music in my entire life.
-Contemplated masturbation... Decided it felt too ridiculous at the time. Hard to explain WHY properly... (Plus my...erm...member...shrinks significantly when I'm rolling...I must investigate the physics of that further... Intuitively you'd think it would be the other way around, no?
- I was starting to come down at this point so I smoked a bowl, went to the livingroom (I'd been in my bedroom this whole time) put in God of War 2 and listened to more music until about 5am.
-Finally passed out as the sun was coming up. Got up at noon to go to work. Had a weird day today to be sure....
Royce Gracie is the man.
Like all dreamers, I mistook disenchantment for truth...
Erm, 'scuse me Andria, sell pot and wash dishes two days a week or something...
I rolled by myself last night for the first time... All discretion aside, here's what I did;
-Got naked immediately.
-Wrapped myself in a blanket and went out on my balcony.
-Chain-smoked about 5-6 cigarettes while listening to a prog-metal band called "Circus Maximus".
-After about an hour and a half of that, I came back inside and picked up my classical guitar. (Still naked)
-I've never made such beautiful music in my entire life.
-Contemplated masturbation... Decided it felt too ridiculous at the time. Hard to explain WHY properly... (Plus my...erm...member...shrinks significantly when I'm rolling...I must investigate the physics of that further... Intuitively you'd think it would be the other way around, no?
- I was starting to come down at this point so I smoked a bowl, went to the livingroom (I'd been in my bedroom this whole time) put in God of War 2 and listened to more music until about 5am.
-Finally passed out as the sun was coming up. Got up at noon to go to work. Had a weird day today to be sure....