LISTEN TO THIS...

[weedguru_animal]

I am a massive, fanatical Sage Francis fan. For he is a man, whom I revere as the ONLY living artist whom i aspire to match, in terms of potency. For if I can affect ANYONE, with my words, as he does, then my life will be worth living. Fuck the romance, Fuck the lust, his honesty is magnificent, its regal, despite his open approach, not despite, but BECAUSE, of his approach to integrity, for good or ill. Sage, I love you. As a father, as a brother, as a true inspiration to my existence, not just as a writer, but in all ways...

[weedguru_animal]

This song...demands of me, purity of self expression. It demands of me...Honesty. It demands of me, not just on this virtual page, for these words, while virtually presented, are so close to my femurs, that if you broke then, they would break ME...it makes me miss my brothers, back home...it makes me miss their smiles, their brutality...their I Dont Give A FUck About Anyone Other Than Who I Love approach to love, their Loyalty, Their Heart, Their Embrace...and my eyes are filling with tears as I write this, the keyboard is blurred through a gossamer of tears I jad no idea I still had...and why am I crying??? Where are they rooted?/?

Does anyone feel this??

Is this pain??? Is this regret??? Is this loneliness???

Is this the result of my mistakes, which have led me to this safe situation, a million miles away from every one i love other than a 15 month old maltese shitsu ewok puppy, for whom I would go to war???