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[FIRE!!!]

I should rephrase that. No one talked to me except for the "acting supervisor". She showed me the warehouse section, the freezer where I pull stock from, and she gave me a knife to cut boxes open. That was it.

I talked with the other guy who was working with me in the frozen food section, but it was all job related stuff like, "This goes there. Come with me. Time for break. etc."

Another reason why I didn't talk to anyone is because of everyone's "look" they had on their faces. Eyes vacant, no smiles, and everyone pretty much looked like zombies. Fuck it's depressing. I've got to find something better.

I'm even thinking about selling everything I own except for my clothes, guitar, and CD's and moving out west to Alberta or BC to find work and start a new life. I'm reallllllly thinking hard about that. The only thing that scares me is finding a place to live because I don't have any friends or relatives out there.

Sounds alot like my work...I'm basically the newest person working there, occasionally I will have a quick conversation with a co-worker but I barely know these people, and most of the time it's just a really cold awkward silence whenever there's nothing to do. It's not like it's my fault, I barely know these people, and the fuckers sit there and stare like I'm doing something wrong just because I don't say anything...that's why I feel more comfortable whenever there's alot of work to be done. Alas, I'll go through as many awkward silences as necessary if it means seeing my $400-some odd paycheck at the end of the payroll period.

[Gorecore]

I'm going to have a chat with my friend Jer when he gets back from Cape Breton at the end of August. He is going into his second year of trade school to become a machinist...or something to do with working with metal, lathes, and drill presses...things I know nothing about--except the METAL part *bangs head*

I want to talk to him because he asked me a month or two ago if I wanted to move to Alberta with him after he is finished school in April or May of 2007. The money to be made out West when you have a trade is abso-fuckin-lutely phenominal!!! A job that might pay you $15.00 an hour here will pay at least double or triple out West.

Alberta is quite the rich place. There has been tons of talk about the oilsands out there. Basically there is enough oil in these sand pits (or underground sand/oil deposits to fill over one trillion (yep TRILLION) barrels of oil. So Alberta is booming right now and will continue to boom for years to come.

I'm seriously considering packing my shit and moving out there with him when the time comes. I know I could probably do it on my own but to tell you the truth, I've never lived alone. I have either lived at home or with my ex-wife. So being alone kind of scares me a bit.

My last shift at work went a little better. I ended up chatting a bit with one of the guys there and I found out he plays guitar like I do. Although he's mostly into classic rock and stuff, while I'm mostly into metal, he seems like a pretty cool guy.

Now if I could only find out for certain who smokes up and who is willing to sell to me!!!

Mmmmm....BC bud could be soooo close someday. Close enough to drive there on a weekend trip.

Thanks for your advice Animal. Even though you think you aren't really dispensing advice, you are. I'm terrible at giving advice myself. I usually end up doing the same thing you just did...talking about what I would do, or have done in that particular situation.

It's almost time for bed. Damn, going to bed at 10 am is weird.

[weedguru_animal]

anytime, mr Gore.

To be honest mate, I have come to consider myself more animal than human. this is due to an intentional attack on my anti-instinct controllers(from where, i couldn't say for sure, perhaps from the Self, unconscious and conscious connexion has been increased, irreversably so). I have come to conclude that the majority of human beings lives their lives as a constant series of compromises. This process of empowering my instincts was accelerated recently whilst reading Dostoyevsky's the Idiot. To think I was deadset on buying 'crime and punishment or nothing' when I entered the bookstore, but there was something about The Idiot which drew me. the title no doubt Anyway, I am not attempting to riduclously suggest that I am Prince Myshkin, moreover I am implying that this book proved to me that for centuries human beings, after survival is assured, have been- on the whole - decietful, devious, canniving, cheating, selfish, fake fuckers. And so, with proof in my hands and head, that the sycophantic vaccuous swine which constitute the masses and the edges of the masses, have always been scum, I have gradually asumed the position of an animal-human instead of a human-human. So, it is wrong for me to offer advise to anyone whose human/animal proportions are unknown to me. Because what i would do and think Right to do is often the complete opposite of what even some close friends think the ideal course of action.
At this point in my life, I day dream of turning my back on humanity, joining a pack of wild ocelots and living as they do, as one of their kind.

Still, I know there are other animalistic people. And I keep using this word animalistic because animals generally don't lie, cheat, fake or show arrogance or greed, unless it is for survival reasons. Whereas human beings seem to show all those deplorable traits in respectable pursuit of success. (i do think animals can be just as devious, but not nearly as regularly, away from survival issues, as humans)

But on the other hand, I do still try to connect with any creatures, including human beings, who show an animalistic spirit. And without meaning to offend, I have often thought of you, Mr Gore, as a big friendly bear. Of course most people consider bears to be aggressive rabid skullsmashers but I for one would guess there are a fair few friendly bears...Of course, only when they are well fed could you ever consider a bear freindly. Or maybe not. I have not spent enough time with the species to be able to form a valid assumption of the general demeanour of a bear. Personally, though I have always enjoyed explaining to people that i am half wolf, it appears, that in truth, I am more like a fox. With some tomcat mixed in for good measure.

In short, it seems that animals can obtain peace of mind without all the inorganic bullshit humans have brought to Existance, and above all it is that peace of mind that i seek. To get there, to that situation of peace- like my cat Monty displays so perfectly when bathing in the sunshine on the backyard grass whilst eyeing a baby sparrow which has wondered dangerously into the garden- a return to instinct is needed. Of this i am sure. But what I am not so sure about is if it is possible for a human to turn back the evolutionary clock and get fully back to instinctual living kept only very loosely in check by minimal but powerful wisdom.
The results could be mindblowing...awarenessof new senses and of course, that elusive peace of mind.

Stay cool mr BeaR.

[Dr. Greenthumb]

"Casual drug users should be taken out and shot"
Darryl Gates
Head of Los Angeles Police Department
United States Senate Judiciary Committee (1990)

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Best of luck....

[Jay212]

Got some weed today, by luck. I found 10$ in my pants today and comin home from a friends place I went to my local weed buying bridge place and the same guy I've always bought weed off was there again. He gave me 2g's for 10$. I think this guy's starting to remember me because whenever I come around he asks me "how much you want?"

Last week on my way to a small get together with some people I ran into this guy waitin for the bus and I was like yo wadup man I buy weed from you all the fuckin time. We shook hands, he said thats cool i think i remember dealin with you a few times before, then thats it. I think next time I see him im gona pop the question . "Will you be my dealer?"

[Jay212]

You know you're a stoner when...






















you roll joints to pass the time.

[FIRE!!!]

^You know you're a stoner when it takes that many spaces to finish the sentence "You know you're a stoner when..."

[Jay212]

Yea, those spaces weren't supposed to be there, i just spaced the fuck out.

[FIRE!!!]

All jokes

[FIRE!!!]

My girlfriend just left to Germany for at least 6 months, possibly a year. All her away message says is, and I quote,

"all boys play girls so girls should play em back."

Am I just being paranoid?

that would depend on what you are feeling and thinking, wouldn't it?

[Jay212]

yea, shes just joking. your a good guy...

[FIRE!!!]

Reassuring.

[Jay212]

you're baked remember. Paranoia is just accompanying you.

[Dr. Greenthumb]

What's a man without his paranoias.