i don't know what to say

[Gustave420]

IM usualy a happy person, i was satisfied with my shity job and all the crap. yet alot of bad things have happened as of late. First off my identity was stolen leaving me with really shity credit. i got mugged for my wallet at knife point, i never knew it was possible to really hate some one til i met my boss. And some one im looking for is practicly impossible to track down but thats a whole different story altogether. none of this really bothered me, i mean yes i was upset but i didn't let it get me down. and just recently my dealer got put in prison serving a 15 year sentense for possesion, and grand theft auto, im kinda dying here but it didn't get me down. Then suddenly out of no where it like Life Decided to Hit me in the gut. i realized im very tired, and very worn out. i mean to say i try to get a little ahead in life and its like some one threw a stone through a porcalin store, every thing is suddenly shattered, i don't care about all that, i just want to feel the way i used to, might not make much sense but, i want to end it all, but i want to keep going, mostly out of spite and rage. i don't even know why im telling every one this. im not asking why, or how to dig my self out of a hole someone else dug for me. Fuck it, i have lost every thing, my confidence, my pride, my money, and probably mt job soon. what is not the question, its not who, its when, when will i break, and end up killing my self, i don't wana do that, yet it crosses my mind, im not sure. all i know is that the harder i try some one pushes me back into my lower class place, every time i don't try, i get walked on and when i don't care every one around me gets hurt. that it for now.

[Shwoot]

Man show them you can fucking take it. Grab life by the balls and kick it's ass. Prove that nothing can keep you down, you'll always come back up.

[Weedguru_Dusk]

I think there's various things in our lives that are meant to try us. Sure it fucking bites. But you cannot have one thing without the other. Over time you have to look at yourself and realize what's important.
There are various people in my life that I know that do things without thinking about the future and how that will effect them. Maybe that's what happened to you. But as said before grab life by the fucking balls. If something wrong happened figure out why the fuck it happened, and change it.
Certain things in the past are to stay that way and you gotta move on.
You have to hit rock bottom a few times in life to wake up and figure out where the hell you need to go next.

If any of that makes any sense... I think I started jumping subjects.

[Weedguru Higher]

What doesn't kill a man makes him stronger. Keep your head up buddy, you can beat this. Life can be a bitch most definately but don't let it pull you down. Things will get better all in due time.

[Weedguru_Fire_Inside]

Believe me, you're not the only one who feels they should be doing better than they are.

[Weedguru_Falkon]

What doesn't kill a man makes him stronger. Keep your head up buddy, you can beat this. Life can be a bitch most definately but don't let it pull you down. Things will get better all in due time.

yeah, man. Just try to look at the positive things in life. Dont look at what you dont have, or whats going wrong, but lok at wha tyou do have, and what is going right.

[Scratch]

Rest your soul for a week or two, just get in touch with the people you love, with your family, spend a little time with them, just give it all a rest. Stop using drugs, getting drunk, hanging out with friends for a little while. Go to a beach and do nothing, just chill out. That's what helps me when I'm feeling low, my mind seems to get clear. Just try not to fuck up even more by doing something stupid.

[Funk Doctor]

Stop using drugs

That's probably the single most important thing you should do. Also, talk to your friends, they can help you get through this even if it's just by listening.

[Gustave420]

im doing a lil better. i was reading a poem by Lao Tzu. It goes

When all the world Recognizes Beauty as Beauty
This in its self is ugliness
When the world recognizes good for good, this in
itself is evil

Indeed, The hidden and the Manifest Give birth to
each other
Dificult and easy compliment each other
Long and short Exhibit each other
High and low measusr each other
voice and sound harmonize each other
back and Front Follow each other

Therefore, The Sage manages his affairs without ado
And spreads his teaching without talking
He denies nothing to the teeming things
He rears them, but lays no claim to them
He does his work, But sets no score by it
He accomplishes his task, but does not dwell upon it.

And yet it is just because he does not dwell on it
That no one can ever take it away from him

[Marionette]

If each day falls... by Pablo Neruda


If each day falls
inside each night,
there exists a well
where clarity is imprisoned.

We need to sit on the rim
of the well of darkness
and fish for fallen light
with patience.

[Stoegee]

Sorry to say this but poems suck ass and do absolutely nothing.All you need to do is really relax,visit your family,and really let everything that sucks ot get you down like it used to man.Suicide kills way more people than statistics want to let on,dont be a fucking statistic.

[Midnight Toker]

What doesn't kill a man makes him stronger.

My uncle used to say that. Til the accident...

But seriously dude, you just gotta try and stay positive. Bad shit happens to everyone everyday, no one has everything their way.

Sure things look shitty now, but they will get better if you just keep your chin up and do everything you can to make your life better.

You hate your job and your boss? That's a situation easily rectified, quit and find a better one. There is always work out there, it's just a matter of getting off your arse and putting in the leg work to get it.

No one is going to ring you up and offer you a better life, you gotta strive to make it happen.

Just try and stay positive, look at all the good shit in your life and be thankful for it, rather than focusing on the bad points and spiraling into depression. What's done is done, you just gotta put the past behind you and look to the future.

One thing i must stress though, suicide is not an option. Aside from the facts that these problems (while horrible) just aren't all that important in the grand scheme of things, suicide is both idiotic and selfish.

This is the only life you have, you dont get a second stab at it. You gotta try and live it the best way you can, rather than bailing out at the first sign of trouble.

You also gotta think of your family and the people that care about you. Can you even imagine how devastated they would be. You gotta think about how your actions will affect other people, not just about yourself. Seriously dude, things can NEVER get that bad that you should even consider suicide.

Trust me, in a few years you'll look back and think, ''What the hell was i thinking, i could be dead right now and be missing out on all this.''

Hope i was of some help, chin up son.

[Arik ^]

"put your head up high and blow your brains out"

I personaly would like to read in the newspaper more often about people freaking out and going on killing sprees. Kill every one who pisses you off!

When you can't get back up, bring every one else down with you! BWAHAHAHA


"Sarcasim"

Best of luck