Apologies for wasting your bandwith

[cutthecashflow]

Ok here goes Ive got a lot of feelings spiraling around in my head and I need to vent so Im gonna vent here. If you wanna read it go ahead if you dont you dont have to I just gotta type down whats going on in my head maybe I can make some sense of it......

April 14th 2005

Well here I am sitting at my computer, and as I sit here there are a few things running wild throgh my mind. First and foremost would be....... Hell its a tough descion actually. See I wish that I had more confidence with a few of the ladies. Theres one in particular at the gym that I lift at.... I mean this one Ive always thought of as a hottie, since I first got there and still to this day almost nine months later. I think she likes me too because she is always walking by when Im boxing or lifting, always says high, and always says see ya later in kind of a flirtatious sort of way. Ahh hell If I wasnt so shy....

Regardless Im down here for another two years and Ive pretty much pissed my chances away this year for any tail unless I can come away with some sort of Spring Fling.... This seems unlikely though unless I go to a party, which I probably wont.... Its funny because for the last four years of my life I loved going to parties and getting shitfaced and having a good time. Now days however I'm much happier getting stoned with a few good friends of mine and just chilling out.

LOL! Maybe some chick will say that she wants my cock! But then again Ive learned something this year that has never registered in my brain before. That is, Women are not objects! So a porno type sex scene happening in my life is quite unlikely.... Might as well find a girl to settle down with...... NO! This is not acceptable. If I settle down now I won't get the oppurtunity to travel, to see things, to see people, to expeirence different cultures. There are over two billion women In this world why pick one out now when there are so many more choices out there....... Enough of this!

Now the issue that has been pissing me off is my roommate. I cant fucking stand this kid. I mean honestly he thinks he is top shit of everything that he does. It is actually very annoying to the point of I wanna beat his head in. I wont do that though cause that would only make me look foolish and my goal is to make him look foolish. I dont know how I am going to do this but I am going to you can take my word for it. I mean it all starts when we get to class in the morning. He gets there and immediatly tries to make me feel inferior to him because he has better grades. I carry a 3.3 GPA while he carries a 3.6GPA. OOOOO... Big deal right?!

My thoughts are that if you hold your head up high and dont let people bring you down you will become more accomplished then they will. The only people that will try and bring you down are people that are on a lower level than you. They want to bring you down to their level or push you lower. I refuse to let that happen to me.No one can ruin my self esteem.

Because your self esteem makes up who and what you are. Why go through life being an ass and always feeling bad about yourself? There is no need for it. Wake up every morning look in the mirror and say "Im a good person!" "No one can bring me down"!

When someone does say something bad about another or yourself just ignore them. Who cares what there saying? For instance if you walk by and someone hollers out "Loser" or "Faggot" Either walk right by them with your head held high and dont let it bother you! Or say "I only see one loser here and it isnt me!" There goal is to bring you down and not by not letting them they are only self defeating themselves. They call you a loser or other name because thats what they are and they are trying to take the label off of themselves and put it on you. DONT LET THEM DO THIS! Be prideful, welcome new challenges, wake up with an optimistic attitude and success will follow. Never say "I cant", or "its to hard." Welcome new challenges and you will expand your knowledge and personal prestige.


Its off my chest! Cant really tell you all what exactly I just typed or whatever but I just needed to do some venting. Everyone Have a nice day and remember..... ENJOY LIFE.

-Peace out-

[jonny cockeral]

no problem, i wouldnt call this a waste anyways. good for you

[Weedguru Cusmar]

I know what your feeling mate, I think the same thing everyday. I seriosuly think you should just talk to that girl I know i would given the chance.
I just got off the phone with a girl i went out with almost four years ago, yes, the only girl i've been with in that time, i mean properly been with Now i could get with this girl like easy as that, she's invited me round to her house tonight but i said i was busy. The reason is this girl is a dunce, i must be maturing or something cause i can't be assed to deal with this annoying girl just for sex. Seriously, talking to her on the phone then i honestly wanted to hang myself with the wire.
Do any girls or maybe even boys here watch "The OC" personally i think it kills millions of girls brain cells daily. Im gonna prove it has more negative effects on the brain than marijuana, doing this im gonna get weed legalised and everyone in the oc lined up and shot for wasting air time and making people dumb. If you watch the o.c. watch something a little bit more educational to make up for it like the teletubbies.

[jonny cockeral]

the oc is shit except for the girls

[Weedguru Cusmar]

the oc is shit except for the girls

Ye if i want girls there's a whole thread of porn site passes

[Funk Doctor]

About the girl in gym: talk to her. Seriously. It doesn't even matter if you're shy, if she likes you (which from the looks of it appears to be the case), she'll think it's cute.

And if anyone remembers my thread about my little incident during my job as cleaner in the summer, you'll know what my particular views on cocky bastards are

[13laze]

I loved going to parties and getting shitfaced and having a good time. Now days however I'm much happier getting stoned with a few good friends of mine and just chilling out.

Yeah man. The party's i've been to before seems fun and all. but i'm neither in the mood or just over partied....

As said above it might be a really good idea to talk with the girl.
1. What's the worst that could happen?
2. She might be the cure to gettinig you out of this depressive state we humans go through.
3. Beats doing nothing...

[Weedguru Cusmar]

Parties dont happen too much round here cause people are scared it's gonna get crashed the shit out of. I just asked the girl i mentioned above why this other girl didnt want me coming to her party, apparently she thought i was gonna bring loads of "townies" and ruin it. Im seriously shocked, i don't own one item of burberry

[fluffy100xr]

I know what your feeling mate, I think the same thing everyday. I seriosuly think you should just talk to that girl I know i would given the chance.
I just got off the phone with a girl i went out with almost four years ago, yes, the only girl i've been with in that time, i mean properly been with Now i could get with this girl like easy as that, she's invited me round to her house tonight but i said i was busy. The reason is this girl is a dunce, i must be maturing or something cause i can't be assed to deal with this annoying girl just for sex. Seriously, talking to her on the phone then i honestly wanted to hang myself with the wire.
Do any girls or maybe even boys here watch "The OC" personally i think it kills millions of girls brain cells daily. Im gonna prove it has more negative effects on the brain than marijuana, doing this im gonna get weed legalised and everyone in the oc lined up and shot for wasting air time and making people dumb. If you watch the o.c. watch something a little bit more educational to make up for it like the teletubbies.

lmfao dude theres this girl im my history class thats a fucking MORON!! She thinks outloud about everything. The best part: the oc is her life!!

[Weedguru Cusmar]

lmfao dude theres this girl im my history class thats a fucking MORON!! She thinks outloud about everything. The best part: the oc is her life!!

This link between the oc and morons appears far too often.