Couldn't think of a title

[Zen]

Ya see me lookin at you?
Fuck you!
Ya see me trying to talk?
Fuck you!
Ya see me doing what I do?
Wanting you? Waiting for you?
FUCK YOU!

What the hell is this hurricane?
Lashing me with heartache and pain!
I thought it was sincere, not feined,

But no! Apparently not!
This isn't what I wanted
Not This disgusting lot,
Of sitting and stewing
Thinking of this Angel
Boiling and brewing,
Watching this Angel
Too much, nothing doing
Over this fucking Angel.

Clouds would catch us flying,
As we talked and laughed,
Why do I find myself sighing,
Never saw myself crashed,
Into this uncomfortable place,
Where all I love and hate is your face!

Stationary walls, stare me down,
White on white, all around,
Watching myself slowly drown,
Watching me fight with these fucking feelings
These feelings for you, I thought would come true
But cast aside and left behind, I stare from the line
Where I've waited so long, for you to come along
To come back with newer vision
You were the one to free me from this prison.

I'll turn my back to you as you have done to me,
And forsake that which I thought I needed,
I'll take this fucking burden; set Myself free!
Too much of this sitting, enough of my bleeding.
Stitch these heart wounds shut, and go.
Cast of these shackles of hurt and woe.
Why the fuck have I been so dark.
I'm making this change. This is where it starts.

Not with you.
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[weedguru_animal]

thats quality. the hate and love mixture so dangerous, so all consuming. ryhmes like that make me laugh when i hear people say that men dont have the same emotional tendencies as women, i thinkwe have as much, and that we can express it easier. good luck with your new start derekson, lets hope you can redirect the love towards yourself and the hate, well try to let it run dry.
stay happy
animal